Tomorrow is Clear Liquid day..

Oh yeah...LOL
Seriously I'm thankful that the kind of surgery I am having doesn't require the 9 day liquid diet that the other 2 surgeries do. I can eat "normal" food right up until today and then just one day of clear liquids before surgery. After surgery of course as explained in my last post i do have a specific diet to follow as my body heals, but it's only for a short time and then i will be able to slowly get myself back to what will be my new "normal" eating.

Am i nervous, yup. But it's normal, i'm keeping busy to help with that.

I'm still battling with the consequences of giving up caffeine. Still having a lot of on/off headache, very sluggish feeling and my head seems very foggy. Some of this could also just be nerves and all the "to do" lists rolling around in my head too.

I will weigh myself one last time tomorrow morning, it will undoubtably be a high weight as I'm planning a "go out with a bang" huge spaghetti dinner tonight. Yeah maybe I'll wait and do that after my day of clear liquids, LOL, j/k.

I know there are going to be times coming, very soon likely where i will be doubting my decision for this surgery. I will have a lot of "what were you thinking", "why did i do this to myself" and other posts and rants.

So just to refresh -
I am doing this because -
* I want to be healthy.
* I want to be the best mom I can, being severely overweight impairs my ability to do that in some ways.
* I want to be the best wife I can be, being severely overweight impairs my ability to do that in some ways.
* I want to avoid all the health problems associated with obesity - diabetes, high blood pressure, joint/bone problems.
* I want to hike, bike, swim, canoe, heck maybe even RUN.
* I want to feel good about how I eat, how i exercise and how healthy i am.
* I don't want to make excuses for why i can't do the things. I want to be able to do things without being the "Fat Mom" on the sidelines of life.
* I want to not be out of breath, or sore as heck from doing the simpliest of tasks.
* I want to live as long as possible, this surgery gives me the opportunity to live a lot longer, the risk of surgery is way less than the risk of all the co-morbiities that go along with morbid obesity.