I don't always even realize it at the time, but i have "WOW" moments all the time! A great example was this past Friday & Saturday. Friday Faith and I joined a group of "mommy" friends & kiddos for a trip to the beach. Last year, I probably would have worn something like shorts & a t-shirt, and still felt like a total "stand out" super overweight, OMG everyone is staring at me, uncomfortable person. But, not this year, i wore my bathing suit, yes me a bathing suit to the PUBLIC beach - amazing milestone for me. Was I still a little uncomfortable, absolutely - what woman isn't when she's in a bathing suit (okay well except the super model perfect body types). BUT, I didn't worry about what others thought, or the fact that my legs & arms are flabby. I just focused on the fact that I was wearing a bathing suit 2 sizes smaller than ever before (a 2x) and that I was going to have fun with my daughter & my friends at the beach. And we did!
Move on to Saturday. Friends contacted us and said to come down to their cottage on the lake and visit. We went ahead at the spur of the moment, threw our bathing suits in a bag and headed out. I wore my bathing suit, on a boat, got off said boat and swam, got back on the boat without any trouble (you know the awkward i'm really too fat to be doing this kind of troubles?) and had an amazing time actually swimming and playing in the sun with my family!!
It's days like these that are the total reason i had this surgery. I am no longer sitting out on life, i'm embracing it! I'm joining in and being a part of fun activities with my family. I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching the fun, i'm part of it!!
Weight Loss
Monday, July 25, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
Baby Steps...
This last couple months really has seemed like "baby steps". The weight is slowly coming off now, a lb here and a lb there. But it's SLOW...and i know exactly why, so I'm not overly concerned, but it's on my mind just the same. Once baby is here and I can get back to business, i'm confident it will pick up again (heck, just the baby weight alone will probably get me back to business!).
I'm finding this pregnancy much more tiring than I thought it would be. Just when I had gotten all this energy and determination to accomplish the goals of "post weight loss", I find myself feeling very indifferent to accomplish much of anything. It's frustrating but i continue to remind myself that this too shall pass and once this little miracle is here, i can have my body & mind back (well sort of LOL).
I am now down 128 lbs, weighing in at around 251. I am thinking i'm going to stay right around 250 for a while, the scale isn't moving in leaps and bounds now and I'm totally okay with that. I have mixed emotions about potentially "gaining back" some of the weight i have lost. I want baby to be healthy, that is my absolute #1 priority, so that means eating a lot more carbs than i'm necessarily comfortable with.
When I entered into this lifelong diet change, i knew that cutting carbs, especially simple carbs was going to be a major lifelong change. I was READY, and i struggle with eating them knowing full well they are impeding my continued weight loss. But, the flip side is if i don't eat them, I easily go into ketosis and putting baby at greater risk, i'm not willing to do that. I confess to struggling each day with getting in the required 90 grams of protein plus enough carbs to keep myself out of ketosis & therefore keep baby healthy. But I take it one day at a time and do my best, that's all I can do.
I am hoping and praying that when we have our mid pregnancy ultrasound on the 25th that baby is totally healthy and at an appropriate size for gestational age, I worry so much about my nutritional intake, my vitamin levels & my malabsorption of nutrients. I try to push those thoughts to the back of my mind, but since i'm turning this into a confessional of sorts, the "what ifs" are definitely there. I guess the only thing to do is continue to do my absolute best with intake & say a lot of prayers.
Baby steps ...
I'm finding this pregnancy much more tiring than I thought it would be. Just when I had gotten all this energy and determination to accomplish the goals of "post weight loss", I find myself feeling very indifferent to accomplish much of anything. It's frustrating but i continue to remind myself that this too shall pass and once this little miracle is here, i can have my body & mind back (well sort of LOL).
I am now down 128 lbs, weighing in at around 251. I am thinking i'm going to stay right around 250 for a while, the scale isn't moving in leaps and bounds now and I'm totally okay with that. I have mixed emotions about potentially "gaining back" some of the weight i have lost. I want baby to be healthy, that is my absolute #1 priority, so that means eating a lot more carbs than i'm necessarily comfortable with.
When I entered into this lifelong diet change, i knew that cutting carbs, especially simple carbs was going to be a major lifelong change. I was READY, and i struggle with eating them knowing full well they are impeding my continued weight loss. But, the flip side is if i don't eat them, I easily go into ketosis and putting baby at greater risk, i'm not willing to do that. I confess to struggling each day with getting in the required 90 grams of protein plus enough carbs to keep myself out of ketosis & therefore keep baby healthy. But I take it one day at a time and do my best, that's all I can do.
I am hoping and praying that when we have our mid pregnancy ultrasound on the 25th that baby is totally healthy and at an appropriate size for gestational age, I worry so much about my nutritional intake, my vitamin levels & my malabsorption of nutrients. I try to push those thoughts to the back of my mind, but since i'm turning this into a confessional of sorts, the "what ifs" are definitely there. I guess the only thing to do is continue to do my absolute best with intake & say a lot of prayers.
Baby steps ...
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