I'm just over 33 weeks pregnant, time is flying! I've been hanging out right around the 243-245 point for a few weeks now. I lose a 1/2 lb here and there, but never really go anywhere "fast". And i am TOTALLY FINE with that. Baby weighs around 4 lbs now, plus all the fluid, placenta, etc I am sure i'm still losing fat in other areas. And, actually truth be told i KNOW i am, cause things are lose on me like never before. My face, neck & shoulders have changed so much - i can see my shoulder bones, i have shape and definition there like i never had. It's fantastic.
I have to confess the loose skin is really bothering me. I have a round tummy from baby but the skin under is soooo loose and gross. My ass is like a puddle when i sit. My thighs & arms have the jiggle. There's sooo many things i don't like and I am struggling with that. I know that it doesn't really "matter" and that being lighter & soooo much healthier is what really "matters". But it's really hard to have this new self image problem, when i was so heavy i just hid everything & pretended it was there. Now I want to wear the smaller clothes, the short sleeves, etc. but at the same time i still fight the urge to "hide" all the things i don't like. Thankfully after baby comes I will be able to wear shapewear more - right now just about everything i've tried compresses the tummy too much and is uncomfortable.
So 7 weeks to go and hoping by mid January to see a good loss of baby weight that will bring me down maybe another 20 lbs putting me on track to getting to my personal goal of 199. Realistically my "goal" weight should be much lower than that, but i will be completely utterly thrilled to just be under 200 lbs for the rest of my life that if i'm 199 and never lose another pound i will consider myself a 100% success!
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